Ever did that? Suffer for a thing that you had nothing to do with in the begining?
I am in a project that is eating away my time, my life and the zeal I have… I have often asked my self in the past… am I to be blamed? Initially I thought I was… I was not picking up skills quickly enough… I was not trying to be innovative… I was just trying to do all that I was asked to / was supposed to do. So I changed… I planned out things, learnt new tricks… mastered the tool I was working on. I made it fun… I liked it because it gave me an outlet to try out my lateral thinking capabilities… I would compare it to solving a GIANT jigsaw puzzle. Anyways I did learn a lot… It was no pre-defined learning curve… most of it was based on the need at the moment. Atleast my peers acknowledged that, they are happy, I still have a long way to go, just an year into this industry.
So, here I am, doing all that I can, working like crazy, for nothing… why I do it? Cause I want it done… The client never appreciates the work we do, never ever… I have worked for people who are under tremendous pressure, very senior, they had every right to be demanding and uncaring… but surprisingly… they were not. They listened and spurred you on… but this guy… I don’t know what to write… just that I wish he were replaced by someone. I cannot work with him. It is very hard.
Sorry for deviating from the subject line, but had to vent things out. So I hope it is clear now that I am suffering. But where is the mistake I was supposed to rant about? The mistake was done by the people who provided an estimate for the project. The mistake was by client who agreed to move to this piece of s*** product. No one even googled the word. I have to say… the tool is very well marketed. Its like selling a product at prize horse rate, which delivers a lame ass performance… thanks to microsoft… (I will come to microsoft in a post some day later)
So, here it is… some people sit and discuss… they have a look at the tool… provide an estimate that is horribly wrong… they should have known… what I am doing… has never been attempted before… they should have given more time and done more analysis. Analysis started after the project was flagged off… why? Look at it now… I am working insane hours… I cannot sleep at night… I feel like I am being pulled apart… I like the fact that people are giving me responsibilities… but I need a teacher… it is unfair to put me in a pit and ask me to fight my way out of it. I might succeed… but it might be the wrong way…
Hope my client reads it… hope the people who made the estimate don’t. They are still there in the project… and I just have to look into their eyes to see how sorry they all are… but does that change a thing?
Thanks for listening…
